I thought I went over you, I thought I was strong enough to handle all the things that could happen, I thought I wouldn’t feel painful for the past anymore, but I just found that I was wrong.
Like all the other negative emotions, the longer and harder you try to supress pain, the fiercer it will fight back. It was all fine when we were still keeping distance from each other and that’s why I had the illusion that I’ve went over you. However, things went downhill since I tried to get closer to you again, all the memories and pains just rushed back into my mind and I can’t help it, I don’t even have the strength to fight against it. It came to the point where I felt the worst today and I